change of plans

so from our last email, my companion might not be able to go with me through the whole trip. though the reason why is understandable and perfectly valid, this poses a problem with our initial itinerary. first off is that different sets of ticket will have to be bought since I will be arriving earlier. second, i will be spending more than our initial budget since i will be alone, and therefore will be spending on a single basis, on the first few days of the journey. third, our plan to have a couple of her friends "house" us for the few days we'll be staying in one place is now next to impossible since i'm not comfortable staying at a stranger's house without the person known most especially to the host.

anyways, this is just a couple of the fixable problems in this planning stage.

what is most pressing problem to me right now however, is my fear of going for a few days alone in a new place. okay, so i've done it already and can do it again, but i have already set my mind that i'll be with someone on the onset of the trip and now, i'm left alone to wander the first few days. it would be an adventure just like old times, but as i've said before, with age comes many fears.

for now, i must fix my new itinerary and budget before december 12. according to our agent, the airfare is already rising as we are nearing the wyd and must finalize our travel plans. the tickets need to be bought the soonest.

so, good luck to me, to us!

i've already thought of looking for a companion but no one comes to mind at the moment. like what the Dhammapada said, travel only with thy equals or thy betters; if not, travel alone.